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Michael
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Loving you is like breathing. How can I stop it?

The sweet memory of you and I
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Je me surprends en pensant a toi, je vois tes photos et je sourit quand je vois ton visage, tes yeux, ta bouche, ton corps, qui me rappelle la façon comme tu marches. Ton sourire et les faucets sur tes joues quand tu sourit, ce que j'aime tant.

Tu as laissé une marque tres profonde dans mon intérieur. Maintenant celibataire Je rêve de te voir un jour de façon tres simple, voir ton sourire et on se regarde dans les yeux pour se dire ce que les mots ne peuvent pas dire.

Je relis ceci et je me trouve un peu 'cheesy' mais nous avons deja parlé de ca. De fois on s'exprime comme ca, parce qu'on sait pas comment le faire autrement. Peut-être parce que ce qu'on ressens nous amène a écrire comme ca tout simplement.

J'aimerais te revoir un jour Michael, te serrer et t'embrasser.
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Maybe I am amazed...
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I have a secret: During 2009, and for more than a year, every time I watch a movie or TV show who had a couple happily in love or suffering from love, I always, always, think of you and me, and found myself crying. Even if someone was by my side watching too. Many times I hide my tears. Sometimes it was hard to hide the sobbing.
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Dream
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This is the third day in a row that I dream about you Mike. I haven't dream about you in a long time, suddenly I do it 3 days in a row.

I am not going to lie, this makes me feel good.
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The memories are still in my head, they pop from time to time, now they are kinda sporadic, short, but still there.
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It was last year
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Last year I struggle a lot with memories of you, strong feelings and heartbreak. I was surprised how I became very vulnerable. The fact that I still think about you from time to time means that I was truly in love. Had amazingly strong feelings for you, Michael.


Today I have great memories, but I also have dissapointment.



Mixed feelings, but peace of mind.
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En cas que tu lis mon journal
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Si tu lis ceci ça veut dire que au moins tu te soucies. J'ai pensé que c'etait stupide de te donner accèss a mon journal, mais je crois que tu as le droit a savoir comment je me sentais a chaque etape, et que quand je pouvais pas te parler au moins j'avais ce journal. Mes amis pensent que je dois t'oublier. Je ne t'oublirais pas, mais je me fais a l'idée que nous serons jamais ensemble a nouveau.

Ceci fait partie du processus de guerison, pour le temps que je me suis senti blessé et delaissé. Je sais maintenant que nous avons vecu une tres belle relation et que tout ca fait partie des beaux souvenirs, mais aussi du passé.

Si tu lis chaque entrée et chaque commentaire tu comprendras un peu plus pourquoi j'avais des sentiments si forts pour toi. Je te remercie a nouveau pour l'amour que tu m'as donné.
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Aaargh!
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feel like a thin layer of ice.
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Vulnerable day # 94
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I feel vulnerable again,still thinking about my baby (M) and having nothing to help me go throught all this. - sigh -
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I know that some day you will read all this
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I woke up, you were there beside me, watching me sleep, you smiled at me and I felt like the luckiest man on earth. I guess is was the same weekend that you missed your flight back to Montreal. I was very nervous, because Jeff was coming back that day, and because no one ever slept in our bed beside you. But boy I was so happy!

I wanted to keep you with me then, you needed to go back to your boyfriend, and I was in a relationship as well. We tought that the timing wasn't right then, maybe it was...
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